Day 1: Word Count 464, Pages 2

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Rape And Incest Survivors' Internet Network Support System
> Recovery
> Recovery is over: tomorrow is the first day of the rest of my life!!!

Author: SsynIsBeautiful
Date: 11/1/04 @ 8:07am
Title: "Recovery is over: today is the first day of the rest of my life!!!"

It feels like I've waited all my life for this day to come, instead of a these three years. Three years, 91 days, 18 hours, 26 minutes.

The man of my dreams is coming home to me, and I will finally have a family again. All the nightmares will be behind me. All of the loneliness and pain and depression. Yes, I know, depression can't be cured by a man. But this one... he is just so special. I think they may have to change the rulebook for him.

But you've heard all this before, right? So Lily, when you read this, thanks so much for EVERYTHING. I don't know how I could have endured so much without your kind words and concern. You can finally stop worrying about me. :)

Author: TaintedLily
Date: 11/1/04 @ 9:22am
Re: "Recovery is over: today is the first day of the rest of my life!!!"

I hope I haven't missed you, Ssyn. You know my feelings on this topic by now. I don't know what else to say. Please don't go to him tonight. It's public knowledge that this man is dangerous. And on his first day of freedom, he will be amazingly unstable. And desparate.

Please Ssyn, just take me up on my offer to meet and discuss this. Just once. You can put off your reunion for one day, can't you? Just one day? I swear you won't regret it. Even if I can't convince you, at least I can finally give you that hug we keep promising to each other.

You have my email address. Or we can chat so I can give you my phone number. Don't you finally want to meet after all this time? Then you can go see him tomorrow. OK?

I hope you read this before going out.

Author: SsynIsBeautiful
Date: 11/1/04 @ 9:34am
Re: "Recovery is over: today is the first day of the rest of my life!!!"

Lily, I always hoped we'd be able to meet. I would have loved that hug. But I've always know that we never can. I must continue my stance of being secretive. You'll just never understand how much I love this man. No one approves of him, not even you. You've been so supportive, I won't hold it against you. But I can't ever meet you. I won't be coming back to the board again. My life will be so different after today, I don't think I'll need it anymore. Take care of yourself, ok?

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